May 6, 2014

Have you ever cried just because you are you?
Because you are all alone?
But you are surrounded by hundreds of beings.
No one sees you.
No one feels you.
You are drowning in your own tears.
Watching everyone else breathing.
There’s the pressure to be perfect in everyone’s eyes.
But the depression is depriving you from the norms of society.
It’s like a demon tearing your limbs off.
How do you move?
But then there’s the technology,
You begin to expose and relate to these beings that may not even exist.
Like a hunger.
A craving. No,
A tenderness.
You can’t be alone anymore.
The thoughts, the demons will come.
Sleepless nights.
Phone calls and text messages.
All from the wrong people.
When all you truly need is the comfort from your mothers lap while she runs her fingers through your thick locks.
Detangling your fears and pain.
But she’s no where to be found.
She’s far away.


I’m broken. I’m hurting so much, and I need you more than ever. I’ve been crying nonstop. I need you in my life, more then I thought. I fell in love with you, and I haven’t slept or eaten properly since Sunday. I’m sick, I’m depressed. There is just too much going on. I don’t know how you feel about me, but I know how I feel about you. I wish I told you before, but I am not good at expressing myself. My heart hurts so much. I miss you, and I am tired of being sad. I don’t want to force a smile on my face anymore. I miss being there for you. I want to be your everything. I want to be able to do everything for you. I want to be yours again. I want to feel your lips on mine. I don’t want to cry anymore.